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CONTINUING TO TELL MY STORY

I haven't felt like blogging lately.  As time goes on I'm uncomfortable talking about myself all the time.  Plus, it seems like it is the same story over and over and I'm tired of it, so how could others still be interested?

But today some awesome ladies showed me that a story is not always about the beginning and the end, but the journey in between.  Right now it is the part of the book where you push through because you are already invested in the story and you want to see how it ends.

Well, the end of my story has not yet been written.  God is with me just as much as he was on that first day and every page is important.  I will continue to tell it.


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